Chriserena

2009-05-08T08:29:00.001-07:00

Warning, this entry will be full of cursing and swearing to a fake ~~animal lover~~ GAY who lived just 2 block away from my block, Eww.

To cut the story short, while i was playing chasing with Babyy, there's a guy( let's call her a guy now)with a terrier being loosen, running around playing infront of us 1-2m.So Babyy noticed that dog, frozed.I was behind her all along.Dunno for what, that stupid dog came sniffing Babyy as for your information, cat when feeling threatened, they will hissed at that paritcular thing.So as that dog approached, Babyy hissed and off the cat/dog fight begin.I was in shock, that owner, came rescue his dog while that sissy dog plead with that "enn enn" sound trying to climb up to his owner.

I thought everything was over and was going toward Babyy, but to my terror, that GAY, kicked Babyy serveral times while holding on his dumb dog.Not only that, he even used his slipper, THREW THAT FUCKING SLIPPER ON BABYY!!!That very scene had already fumed me up so much that i shouted" HEY STOP THAT ALREADY OK, YOU'RE NOT EVEN AN ANIMAL LOVER!!!SO WHAT YOUR DOG IS ANIMAL, MINE'S NOT!!!??To that, i ran toward him, gave "him" a great push and he turned over and shouted" DON'T YOU TOUCH ME OK BITCH, I LIKE TO BEAT THAT CAT SO WHAT? SHE ATTACKED MY DOG OK!!!.And that i screamed out" YOU'RE NOT EVEN A ANIMAL LOVER, DO THAT AGAIN I'LL CALL THE POLICE!He followed with"CALL LA,CALL,LAYOU DON'T THINK YOU'RE A FEMALE I DON'T DARE BEAT YOU OK!!!BITCH!!When i heard that forbidden word, my fire went up to boiling and i shouted, YOU BEAT LA, I SCARED YOU AH! YOU DARE BEAT I SUE YOU!YOU SAID CALL LA RIGHT, OK I CALLED!He shouted"OK YOU CALLED!"I took out my phone and dial 999 but not pressing the call icon, just then a auntie with her maid and dog came to me and said, don't quarrel le, don let him beat you, I screamed,while that sissy was walking ahead"COME BEAT ME LA, YOU DARE BEAT, I SUE YOU MOLEST, SEE WHO WIN! NOT EVEN A GENTLEMAN, WANT TO EVEN BEAT GIRL, WEAR SKIRT LA, FAKE ANIMAL LOVER!!!After saying all these, that GAY walked even faster and gone in a turn.

Normally i won't get so fummed up given my already bad temper.I can actually surpressed it until i can't anymore then i'll blow.But this time, i really had to gave that GAY some scolding.Should had even video his sinful doing and report to the SPCA!!What made me even angry was that because Babyy was already pregnant with kittens and THAT FUCKING GAY STILL KICKED HER ON HER STOMACH!!!Luckily Babyy was not injured but i'm not too sure for the latter.FUCK GAY.

2009-05-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

My mind in a lost now, what should i do? I find my life super meaningless now.

My intention was to study at september.Trying to save money yet with a mere 3 digit salary, how to?Intially, i thought, every month a $200 will do.But whenever i got hold of my salary, tried doing a calculation, all i will be left is my transport/food money.I don't even have any leftover for entertainment nor some pampering for myself.Due to this, i rejected my ex-co birthday celebration, which i am very guilty about it, luckily for her, my Xuan clearly understand me and she agree for just having a small gathering this Sunday, thanks so much Da-jie.She's truely a Da-jie who had been taking care of me when i'm still in Tenchi.

Because of this, i gave up the top which i had wanted so badly till i went to try it everytime i am in that shop.If its the younger me, i had already purchased it without even hasitating.After that great incident happened on me, i finally knew the importance of money.I always think when buying something, even for food.Pathetic i know.I am that pathetic now.Laugh for those who want.

My body is getting weaker, i can't ton through the night, can't even stay awake while working.I dozed off while doing services, i yawned countlessly everyday.I can't be that weak right?

I wanted to cry out loud but i had to be strong.Even i'm poor, being looked down on, being stepped on, being ditched away, whatever it is, i am Zi jun, thou tissue is very weak, but this tissue will not being tore so easily.

At the very least, i still have people who truely cares.

2009-04-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

This entry was wrote to release my feelings being surpressed inside me in the first place.I had alot to write actually.When i came to this page, everything i wanted to express, gone in second.My mind's a blank, my fingers frozed, and all i did was to stare blankly into the space.

I was unhappy with work, unhappy with how i'm being treated, unhappy with what i am now.I want to go back to study, to upgrade myself again and this time with no slacking again.Deep inside, i knew i am never gonna be good in studies, but i want to give myself a chance yet again.Not into serious lecturing or exams, but to build up my skills and something which i can be proud of, vice verus, my parents too.Up to this age, i had finally want to achieve something so badly to prove myself.Though i always remind myself countlessly, don't mind what they said, just do your job to your best and that's it.But real fact, i am actually very bothered with those comments.

Thoughout my life, i've actually achieved many that most people cant,

I learnt swimming with the help of my mummy's support, achieved a silver cert.
I managed to get a bronze for running in my primary school days.One that i'm not good at.
I learnt drawing animes with my cousin and a primary school crush (Jing Yan)'s help.
I get to know art and designing and did pretty well actually.With Jia Ling and Teachers' help.
I joined NCC(sea) with the help's of Joyce and learnt even more seasports which not many had tried.2nd star for kayaking, 1 star for sailing and many more.
After getting to know about blogspot from Wendy, i tried learning to edit, customize HTML codes and made a current website for my workplace.Very proud of it.
Learnt beauty skills from my aunt and her partner.

Perhaps for some, they would thought, chey! website so easy to make, art draw or copy then edit can le ma, seasports go learn la, cert go earn la, eg.

To me, it's already a very good achievements i had.After working there, i actually found out that, many things i knew besides their skills, they actually knew nothing for HTML, basic advertising, some designing skills, they knew far nothing.To me, i'm very happy about this myself.At least i didn't live for nothing, though nothing great achievement so far, but at least i learned more than people, more than anyone now.Be it life experiences, great barriers to overcome, blah blah blah.At least, i knew more.

But,

Deep down, i wanted to achieve more.

2009-04-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

Wow, i haven't been updating my blog for quite some time.Had been very busy with some very personal stuffs and i'm glad it's all over for real, for once.Very appreciated with all those who tried their best to help me, specially my family.They always been so supportive with i've chosen.

As for the much personal stuffs i wont eleborate much here.It's been hell for me and it's like finally i saw rainbow in my life, knowing who will always been with me at my lowest point of life, wouldn't betrayed me even a darkest secret i'll shared with.I'm so glad they're with me all along.

On a different note, i had been thinking on getting a liensced UK approved certifcate(CIBTEC) that will proved on my beauty skills and something to confirm my future career.I've seeked many close kins and friends on their opinions and mostly gave a green light to it.My parents were 100% full support of my decision.

But on the working side, they're not giving a very supportive answer to me, one said perhaps the cert is a buy-in cert, the other said it's certainly not compulsory to get a cert to confirm your skills in beauty career.I totally do not believe that.What is singapore?Singapore need certs to give you like eg. better job, better pay, better position, better commission and so on.With cert, noone will not assure on your skills.Though yes, even with a cert, experience is the secondary compulsory, yet, i still do strongly believe, you need certs to survive in this harsh industry.Many girls will look down on you w/o a cert and w/o experiences, bosses will not be assured on you, climbing up asap is totally like impossible, you will be still doing dirty jobs after 3 years.I haven't been processing at all, all i did was, cleaning and doing dirty jobs like there's no tml, giving out flyers though i kinda like it now as i DON'T have to face them for like 2 hours?Other than that, FULL-STOP.

I should already knew that they want to tie me down so that i couldn't get a cert and so that i would be always be a step behind them.I won't be listening to any negative suggestions anymore, nothing would stop me from getting that cert you both are also holding on.3 years after this cert, i would be getting a degree cert and so i would be a step ahead you both!

I won't let them look down on me.

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Just a very cute cat which Xing named her as Babyy.

On my lowest point of life, that very midnight, this cat came out from nowhere when i was crying at the void deck, comforted me with her cutest purr i've heard.Since then, she had been my closest companion i would rely on.She's like a angel sent by Upper to comfort me.Even since then, whenever i went to work/ finish my work, she would be waiting for me at the void deck welcoming me.Friends who know me well, knew that cat is my great fetish.Too bad my parent opposed, if not she will be inside my house now.But i am not worried leaving her at the void deck, she will be there no matter when.

2009-03-31T09:53:00.000-07:00

Current mood: sick(still!)/confused

This is the 3rd week already and i am (still) sick.Flu and cough had been clinging on me refusing to shake off.This is my 3rd month working there.When will be the day that when i saw my pay, i will be delighted and contented?

Being a trainee isn't that easy.You got ordered like a dog, running errands like a dog, buying their food like it's a must.

I hate it.I detest it.I don't like it.Seriously hate being used up like that.

If to use a nice name, they called you "girl".But it's more like maid.I'm like being tricked into your so-called company, saying that to train me as a qualified beautican but in actual fact, i'm called up to do almost everything FOR you.Yes Everything.I don't mind buying food for you, actually i DO mind, but heck it.I just being nice here.But i don't think i HAD to buy food for your boyfriend actually.Who is he actually? My boss?Nah, not even one.

I felt like quitting.But i don't at the same time.Fcuked up mind now.

2009-03-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

I have to take back all stuffs that i've typed on at the previous previous entry.Anger gushed off the better side of me that day.Yes i did cried that day, even while working, i guess its past.I don't like to hold on grudge.Made me older faster actually, i only want to vent all in a go and forget, actually i forgotten.Haa.Work was a breeze today, but flu virus spread rapidly faster than i thought, it's my 3rd time caughting it i guess.I meant, from recovering it and caught it, recovering it and then caught it again, asked everyone to wear a mask these day even when no customer.Haha, Chloe is the main virus spreader.LOL.Alright, finally 3 months probation ended and i'll be having a payrise!! make it 2.5k ok, OK, OK!!! I must be dreaming.

2009-03-20T06:54:00.000-07:00

Too busy and too tired to blog the whole chunk of stuffs i did within this month right now,

Laziness got the better of me.

This month is a hectic month for me. I work like A** everyday, and finally gotten some pleasing results. Did 2 full procedure of facial service today (like finally)!! I've never felt so happy and contented before.Those hard work paid off.Great effort i put in.It was just only a week before that i couldn't even went down to clean a customer face, phobia struck me and i could'nt do anything.Was very depressed and disappointed by myself.I decided to do some hands-on on myself every night while removing my make up. Just only today, i managed to did everything basic on a customer, cleanse, scrub, diamond peel, cleanse, IPL, cleanse, RF, massage, cleanse, mask, toner and lastly moisturzer. Though it's like everyday thing you did, besides the intensive treatment using machine, it's really not easy to master it. Customer's skin is the first priorty! I'm gald i didn't shook while doing the service. A very remarkable experience i first had.

Bad stuffs aside, at least i learnt something which not everyone can learn while working(for your information, you had to have a liencse as a beautican before you can actually earn money using your skills.I am really forunate to be trainee cum beautican.

This path will definately be a very tough path to walk through, but i will endure till the end.
My hard work will paid off.Sweet fruits will bear eventually. ;)

Happy belated x10 birthday CHEK HAN!!!!

picture i will upload once i am recover from this terrible virus that is spreadly rapidly these days.

2009-03-08T07:27:00.000-07:00

You Can't Please Everyone.
From Aesop's Fables: The Man, The Boy, and The Donkey

A man and his son were once going with their Donkey to market. As they were walking along by its side a countryman passed them and said: “You fools, what is a Donkey for but to ride upon?”So the Man put the Boy on the Donkey and they went on their way. But soon they passed a group of men, one of whom said: “See that lazy youngster, he lets his father walk while he rides.”So the Man ordered his Boy to get off, and got on himself. But they hadn't gone far when they passed two women, one of whom said to the other: “Shame on that lazy lout to let his poor little son trudge along.”Well the Man didn't know what to do, but at last he took his Boy up before him on the Donkey. By this time they had come to the town, and the passersby began to jeer and point at them. The Man stopped and asked what they were scoffing at. The men said: “Aren't you ashamed of yourself for overloading that poor Donkey of yours—you and your hulking son?”The man and Boy got off and tried to think what to do. They thought and they thought, till at last they cut down a pole, tied the Donkey's feet to it, and raised the pole and the Donkey to their shoulders. They went along amid the laughter of all who met them till they came to Market Bridge, when the Donkey, getting one of his feet loose, kicked out and caused the Boy to drop his end of the pole. In the struggle the Donkey fell over the bridge, and his fore-feet being tied together, he was drowned.“That will teach you,” said an old man who had followed them:“Please all, and you will please none.”***

And quoted from allinspirations.com,

I quoted it at esther's blog after reading it.If only i am just abit selfish, if only i am just abit evil and not going to concern, maybe i wont be struggling.Should i be selfish for once so to release myself from every person demands?

I don't have to please everyone, i can clearly type it here that whenever you asked me to distribute your flyers, i actually dumped the whole stack of it and went shopping instead, i hate this job but what can i do? I had to run errands i didn't want to do, buying everyone breakfast after 1 call, doing the whole chunks of duty roaster that i didn't do at home at all, serving drinks to that partner of yours, and when i merely just asked her to make a cup of tea that day, the next day you just told me off, saying given the status i am now, i am not SUPPOSE to ask her to do anything for me, yet for herself she can, all because you are the BOSS.I don't think i had to work like SH*T for you, for your shop.I don't even feel like contributing for your shop, actually i don't think i need to.No, seriously.I can really say i still like my pervious job alot more thou the long hours and stuffs like that, we treated everyone the same, not even the shop manager ordered me like that, I just do everything i need to do every morning and that's it, she won't order us again.Just briefly told us nicely to do things she want us to do.THATS ALL!!! Not everything, Serena computer cannot work, Serena, tea or coffee please, Serena, wash the stained skirt customer had stained with her MENSES!!!, Serena, wash the cups, vacume the floor, wipe the table, do this do that, AND YET WHAT I FUCKING HEARD FROM MY OWN MOTHER THAT YOU TOLD HER I TREATED THAT PLACE AS MY HOME, WHEN I ACTUALLY DO THINGS ACCORDINGLY TO WHAT YOU FUCKING TOLD ME, WHAT YOU FUCKING ORDERED ME, LIKE A FUCKING DOG LISTENING TO HER FUCKING OWNER, ( EVEN A DOG WOULDN'T BE TREATED LIKE TT) BUYING BREAKFAST, LUNCH, DINNER WHEN YOU OR YOUR PARTNER JUST MERELY SAID A WORD , AIYA LAZY LEH, AIYA SIAN LEH, BUT HUNGRY LEH, ASK SERENA GO BUY LA. HOR MISS, I AM NOT YOUR HIRED MAID OK, YA SO WHAT I AM A TRAINEE? no is ACTUALLY, TRAINEE CUM FLYER DISTRIBUTER, CUM RECEPTIONST, CUM DUTY ROASTERS, CUM THIS N THAT.How about me? When i'm hungry who bothers? i had to buy myself food.make myself tea or milo. I worked like ass everyday, went home drop on bed like dead, yet you still claimed that you are tired or what.Or even saying " Serena why so tired, your work so relaxed liao still so tired??"

FUCK YOU!!!

i don't fucking care if you read this, if i had set my mind to type all this, venting my angers here, i wouldn't had scare/fear that you will read this one day.

I felt much better.

Thanks ting and mong for listening my whinnings , Z.Z too. ;)

Thanks baby for lending me your shoulder yesterday while saying all these, i should had told you eariler.

2009-02-16T05:35:00.000-08:00

我真的很不开心. 很不开心.
又有誰知道.
I had been dumping other's people worries on myself every now and then.Till i am "overflow" with worries.I tried to accommodate everyone and neglected myself.Everytime a person came confess their worries to me, i will always try my best to console them and try all ways to help them.Not knowing that i myself had worries too.Forgotten i myself, a human too.How can a human who tried to accommodate with everyone everytime and yet pushing herself to her limit.I always tell myself " Always help a person, you'll never knew someday you could be needing that person's help ".I sincerely thank those who had helped me, i won't blame those who even tried to shut their phone off, human's are selfish, and will always be.Call me a jerk if you want.You are one too.I came to understand human after what i gone through.In this world, everyone only help themselves, how many handfuls of them willing to lend a hand?I will return your kindness if you once helped me, i will off my phone if you once ignored me.Thanks for that.

Only my family and baby stood by me everytime i fall.Some of my friends do too.

I'm glad everything is over.I We want to start anew.

2009-02-14T00:54:00.000-08:00

Finally i had that tinny winny time to update my dusty blog *sweep the dust away*.In my workplace somemore.

First, HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!
Bet all girls will dolled up themselves radiently today.That's including me.Anyway, reason for not posting fequently, WORK.Drowned myself with WORK WORK WORK for the past weeks, same old routine, woke up at 7.30am, dolled up nicely, reached workplace, learn at the same time while working, ended work, waited for baby if i still had that little energy left, reached home lying flat on bed like a dead fish, sleep.

Happy for baby, he got a job like finally.Pretty smooth for him now.Duper glad.

New Year sucks for this year, finally saw some true form of my some relatives.Yes, i'm married, yes i had to give hongbaos now, that doesn't mean you had to stare at me so to relatively hint me to give a hongbao to your next generations -.-. I don't need your $12 that desprately, i meant it.

On a happier note, life wasn't that tight and bored now.Learning new skills as i knew if i had to choose studies over work, i would be wasting my parents' hard earned money once again.I'm not those that can excel in studies given that if i really had put my mind into it.Tried before, no use.Darned, work was stressed, i know i am a trainee in hand now, so had to tolerate with their demands at times, it's ok, i am and i will put up with their demands right now as i am after all, a trainee.Will learn everything i can learn from you and upgrade myself faster than you can imagine :).I am a fast learner ok.Just if i put my heart into it.

Recieved a call from a long lost friend, though we had conflicts way before, but i am thankful and truely happy that you called because you cared.Misunderstandings always triggers quarrels.I came to understand this phrase after going through so much.Yes, so much that normal teenagers at this age wont ever went through.I knew you will be reading this so i'm wroting all these.Stay in touch.

2009-01-22T09:45:00.000-08:00

Stars up there, please spinkle some stardust to earth, to my house right below you.Whereby your stardust will turn into purple notes, blue notes and orange notes when it touches the earthlings.Making each and every human kind wealthly.Therefore making my only one small wish came true.Switch my hubby to auto mode please, i need a hubby, not a sloppy.Dear Stars, make my wish came true..

May all troubles being brush away by your tinkling hands.

Dear Stars, may my wish all came true, just that tiny request.

2009-01-16T07:53:00.000-08:00

Things to shop for CNY after getting my advanced pay:

Brown waist belt
A pair of earrings
Brown leggings
Fake lashes
Maybe a pair of heels? -check-
Either ~~dying my hair~~ or to buy hair extensions -check-
Brown contact lens
River island vintage skirt -check-

That's all i guess? I really got to note my list down if not i will overspent it.Gosh, is it some illness or something, so many things to buy when i sat down and think about it.God bless to the checkered V neck dress to arrive before CNY so that i dont have to hunt another dress.

Work was pretty fine and i finally gotten myself a customer to serve.Hers is only slimming which already applied to the stuffs i learnt till now.40 mintues of doing RF is really easy, all i have to do was kept on rubbing and massaging her problems using the machine and chatting with her through out the whole section.She was really a very friendly lady, was very pleased with my service. =)

2009-01-13T09:15:00.000-08:00

Jane Round Watch, Silver Metallic
Silver metallic strap. Polished stainless steel case. "Juicy Couture" engraving on bezel. Silvertone dial with Roman numerals and crown accent. "G" and "P" hour and minute hands. Crown wind piece. Signature charms. Water resistant to 3 ATM. Arrives in heart-shaped gift box. Imported.
*quoted from juicy couture website.
http://www.shopstyle.com/browse/watches?fl=b1407&fl=b309#46_68
Can anyone kind/sweet/loving heart enough to get this gorgeous time piece for me.Anyone?It was my eye candy.Not every expensive though but i'm broke now.Not even exceeding $200.I can provide you the webby if any kind hearted wanted to buy for me.Baby, will it be my birthday present this year?Or how about my last year christmas present!!??Aww, melted.

2009-01-12T07:40:00.000-08:00

你走了换一个寂寞
和我对坐
摇晃的开着的门口
冷风来笑我
这一场支离破碎的梦
是不是你想要的结果
痛过伤过好过没爱过
就是我现在的感受
伤口再痛痛不过
背叛的伤痛
泪水再多多
不过你给的冷漠
我站在你给的角落
看透你虚假的温柔
我知道这一次
我还是不懂

你走吧
别又再回头说你难过
这一次
不会再接受
廉价的笑容
这一场支离破碎的梦
是不是
你想要的结果
痛过伤过好过没爱过
就是我现在的感受
伤口再痛痛不过
背叛的伤痛
泪水再多多不过
你给的冷漠
我走到你给的尽头
领悟你所谓的承诺
我知道为什么从不说爱我

别再用那眼神看着我
让我走不要再伤害我
还给你要的自由是种解脱
伤口再痛痛不过
背叛的伤痛
泪水再多多不过
你给的冷漠
我站在你给的角落
看透你虚假的温柔
我知道这一次我还是不懂

伤口再痛痛不过
背叛的伤痛
泪水再多多不过
你给的冷漠
我走到你给的尽头
领悟你所谓的承诺
我知道为什么你从不说爱我

2009-01-10T12:48:00.000-08:00

A little peek of my new working place.

I can tell you i am quite happy working there.People over there are nice and friendly, share tips on beauty and skincare, latest fashion trends.Basically i can just slack over there, using msn and surf blogshops when we're free(can even webcam).Busy when there's customer coming for facial.Other than that, we can actually went out for shopping, or perhaps a movie!The place is coated with a very pale pink with glitters wallpaper, themed with a cherry red curtains and cushions, Washed white for the front desk and lastly, covered with a purple pink

carpet.Completed with classic music playing behind, totally relaxing.

Though the salary is tad a little, the main purpose working here is to learn a good skills.To better survive in this harsh world.I'm satisfied with this job and will continue it.

Attended a wedding dinner from my mummy side just now straight after my work.So tired now.Time to shut eyes.

Nothing to do so tried curling my short hair.

Dearest Mummy~

Oh dear, CNY is coming, i haven't even got my clothes!Need to cut down my expensures already!!

2009-01-10T12:06:00.000-08:00

Things i want to buy:

V neck checked cotton dress
Satin waist dress
Jacquard Weave Vitta Luv Panty-hose in purple/grey/brown?
Another high waist skirt(flare)
Eyeshadows(Majoli-whatever)
Cute gold earrings
Accessories to part with appreals
Hair extensions(really long ones)
double hairbands
More waistbelts(i'm in love with those!!)
A new phone
Mary Jane heels (again)
More high waist skirt (Totally sylish)
Hoodies?(Still waiting for my online ordered one T.T)

Thats all i guess?Many more appearing in mind, but too many to list.Gosh!!I need to do some serious savings!!!My Taiwan plan still not sucessfully fufill.So many things to buy, so little time and money.Fighto,serena!

2009-01-02T09:55:00.000-08:00

Being so free for around few months, my er yi(second aunt) used this chance to ask me for a favour.That is to help her partner to be her eyebrow embroidery model.I was abit shocked when mummy told me about this.But as i mentioned, being so free, i agreed.After all, the main thing that made me agreed to this proposal, a free eyebrow embroidery!It's around $400~$800 approximately if given a professional to do it for you.So, why not?A free lunch indeed.Ha!

Inside aunt's shop toilet.Beautifully decorated.

Reached her newly opened shop and was greeted with a very refreshing sweet smell.Very ideal and designed shop.Suitable for girls that always wanted to have princess-like treatment.TRUESHAPE is the best choice.That's my aunt's shop name.It's located at the 3rd floor of LIVESTYLE MALL, or preferly named The adefphin mall.Right beside City hall 3rd MRT entrance.Walked across the road and there you are.

Anyway, She and her partner closed their shop and off we went.To the workshop she will be having test at.

I wouldn't believe myself that i'm in a factory until seeing these lifts.

When we alighted the taxi, i was quite astonished by the building, a rather torn down factory.It looked like its going to collaspe any moment.But when we reached the workshop, i was first greeted by a very snowy white christmas tree, it's still the festival season.

Pretty blue nyon lights and snowy white is a prefect match.

We stepped in and i totally can't believe myself.You wouldn't believe that in a so torn down factory, there's a very beautifully decorated/designed workshop hidden inside.

Beautifully gorgeous Victorian Style.Almost an art museum.

As i am so into gorgeous art, i took out my phone and kept on snapping almost every single master pieces.Some really took my eyes off.I simply just stared at it.

Interior of the workshop.Totally can't believe its a beauty workshop.More like a art workshop.

Vintage victorian antiques.So precious.

Not the heads, is that master piece infront them.Simply realistic.Blame on my phone's pixels!

After roaming around like a little girl,the test finally started.I settled down after a simple lunch and my aunt's partner celine started to shape a ideal eyebrow for me.Her teacher guided her along while "slicing","cutting","plucking" and "shaping" on my thin layer skin.I couldn't say its not painful at all with all the slicing and plucking sounds heard.But still, its very neat and natural for the outcome.Very detailed and painfully neat with beautiful arc made by delicated hands of hers.I adored the finished product thou the colour is tad too dark.But she said the colour will faded off after a week and it will be very natural just like any other brows.

It's still has that stinging feeling now but it's all worth it.She even asked me to be her lips model but i told her i don't need to have full lips.I am not into botox treatment though it's hell expensive for one.You can call me again if it's face botox.I seriously don't mind that.LOL.

2009-01-01T23:51:00.000-08:00

OH my god.He is absoutely my pure joker.
It goes like this:
I was just randomly blog-hopping around when i chanced apon a toy poodle someone just brought.So curiously i asked him.
Me:Baby, toy poodle normally how much?around 5k right?
Him:没有那样贵啦。很normal de.
Me:then是how much?
Him:aa...一块这样吧.
Me:*burst into laughter*

2009-01-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

First day of 2009.I begin it with a very disappointed mood.Sometime i kept wondering, are we still a family?Or just because i am married so counted as "outsider"?I began to feel left out now.They don't share food with me anymore.We don't joke and laugh at the TV program together anymore.Going out together WITHOUT even informing me.I felt so extra being at home now.Luckily there's Xing all along, else i could have left home.Forget about gathering, forget about family, they're just BullSh*t! I am very appreciated with what you all did for me when my life is in a mess, but that doesn't mean that you can take it for granted.

*I'm just thinking over too much, sorry Tia, Nya, Ah di. ;x Still love you all.

冻结的回忆要怎么
解冻才不会痛
温暖的心灵我相信
掌握在我手中
热烈的感情要小心
烫到无法忍受
绝对不怕冷
选择勇往直前热量在前锋

冻结的心渴望自由
每一天挣扎没有人看见
狂风暴雨冰冷寒冬
不怕冷
知道风
吹走忧郁纳闷烦恼
我想。。。

冻结的回忆要怎么
解冻才不会痛
温暖的心灵我相信
掌握在我手中
热烈的感情要小心
烫到无法忍受
绝对不怕冷
选择勇往直前热量在前锋
不怕冷

2008-12-29T03:56:00.000-08:00

It's her big day last saturday.Met Mong after a message from her saying that she wanted to choose a present for her before meeting the gangs.So i accompanied her.Reach Bugis on the dot of 3pm and we roamed around.Went to The wallet shop and saw a suitable wallet and put it into our pending list.Next to the department store yet saw nothing suitable.After a few shop, i aimlessly said that we should check out the Guess Shop.Perhaps there's something that we will eyed on.Saw a unqiue orange wallet that both of us agreed on.It's like totally her kind of wallet so asked for a new piece.One thing i am not very satisfied with Guess is that their new piece always had flaws in it.Aftermath, met Joyce and gangs before buying a cake.Went to V8 cafe to book a reservation and past the cake to them.I wanted to get another scandals as the one i favour on was tored.;(Didn't eyed on any.Perhaps bringing my scandals to the shoe menders.Settled down at V8 cafe after a message from Li quan and the girl of the day arrived.Our table was the most noisiest as we were all trying to gain her attention.Finally after Jia Wei's kinda loud whistle, she saw us and joined us.Had an enjoyable time with all and gave her the chosen present after she managed to finish the not-so-nice cake.I insisted on changing her poor wallet on the spot.She lefted us after that and the rest of us actually slack outside Watsons thinking what to do next.Went to the arcade for some fun and rest at Mos burger.Split with Joyce and gangs before going to the mrt station with Mong.Had a short heart-to-heart talking with her.Glad that she understood fully.Happy day indeed.
//Ps: My photos and Mong's ones are around the same so i didn't upload them.What's happening to my MSN.I can only surf net when my msn is offline, can only msn-ing when i'm not using IE.What the?

2008-12-28T00:00:00.000-08:00

I felt like posting up all my wedding photos in details now.It's full of memories, definately worth posting up. ;).Hang on while i edit/naming/sizing all (at least 400++) photos first.From the photographer ones to Ting took ones.

2008-12-27T11:41:00.000-08:00

Mong, this is the one i brought.Now having promotion $25 only. The owner attached 2 pieces on her hair.

The other one is already curled.Very nice also. See you like which one better.;)

Japan synthetic hair+ premium human hair

16cm wide 60 to 65cm long

If you like, sms/call me then i'll contact her to visit her house to see the pieces.Can trust de.;)

*pictures taken from http://www.hairextensionsclipon.blogspot.com/.

Happy belated birthday Ting!!!Hope you really like the wallet.Me and Mong hunted at least 3 wallet before settling on this.;)

Pictures will be uploaded soon.

2008-12-25T10:20:00.000-08:00

Christmas was nothing special this year.No jingle bells, no roast turkey, no high fattening logcake, best of all, no christmas tree.Stayed at home on Christmas eve and Christmas day.Everyone were partying off their head while me did nothing at all.Wasn't totally in the mood at all.I mean, why ditch off all my cliques when it's a joyful season.Once a year, never less definately not even more.I hate myself for being like that.Penniless, Cheque can't be cash out.Totally meaningless.What's the point of celebrating when i am totally broke?I can't even fork out money to invest a good gift for exchanging.I am a loser.My mood is in the dim point.I didn't want to back out.I was actually anticipating for it.Sorry Mong, i've let you down.You didn't gave up on this bastard friend when i kept giving all sort of reasons to back off.I don't want to dampen your mood by turning up.I don't know how to appreciate it.Sorry Ting, it's your birthday celebration yet i did not turn up.I'm sorry.But your present i wont forget.Had been saving money now to select the best gift for you.Thanks for understand.I never give up on you guys, i gave up on myself.

2008-12-24T06:29:00.001-08:00

not in the mood in doing anything.blah.Sorry guys.

2008-12-17T02:57:00.000-08:00

Ok, back to posting.Last saturday went out with ting and joyce after a sudden message from ting in wee hours.I was fast asleep suddenly i heard"Hi, Miss Alice, Anata garasu no..." Ok that was my recent message tone which is kinda gothic eery that sent my spine down with chill.That aside, so yeah, we headed bugis and really went into shopping.By that we went in almost all shops by shops.First stop is Haji Lane.Clothes are somehow pricey yet hard to resist.But i hold on.Haha.Eyed on 1 piece in MDScollection but still thinking to get or not.Furthermore, i had to think twice as festival seasons are coming!!!Thanks to december, its a losing money month.Savings are reducing each day.What the.However, its quite worth.I must really say, bugis street is really like Joyce's territory.She knew the roads inside out.Finally i got my high waist skirt and a full piece dress.Totally worth it.Next outing, girls!

Am really headached with job hunting, that bloody hell agent is not even replying me.Guess i'll hunt myself then, after the tempting season!! Bells are ringing now.

2008-11-28T04:32:00.001-08:00

About my previous post,
just forget it.
Chuck it off to the back of my brain.

On a happier note, after my continuously nagging and maybe some godsent luck,
i finally convinced my mummy to upgrade my internet plan to a better speed,
better modem, better still,
wireless!!

Speed is 512bmp!!!
Oh goody, i dont have to leech from SMC, BELKIN or whatsome ever random names.Blah.

Mio i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-25T20:15:00.000-08:00

You gave me as a present to my beloved elderly in 1989.
You made them doted me like a precious stone,
making them giving me the best they could ever afford.

On a age of 3, You threw a temper and i had a fever of 41 degree.
You made me left a bitemark on my pap's thumb that can't be eased.
In a hospital, You decided to make my doctor went mad
and threw me into a bucket of ice cold water.
After that cold war,
You decided to take away my memory for awhile,
making me like a stranger to my dearest.
Yet i endure.

After my age of 3,
You grew bored of me and decided to left me alone
while looking for others to play.
Thank god for this.

Year 2008,
You decided to come back to me and torment me even more.

You gave me a life of two,
on the tail of July.
Making me all confused yet decided to keep them.
For this, i treated as fated.

10th of September 2008,
You gave me a disaster wedding,
making me all wear and tore.
Unprepared obstacles.
Yet i continue to endure.

After the wedding,
I thought You've finally let me go.
No, you didnt.

On the very fateful evening,
November 10; 19:05pm,
You took them away when i'm fully anticipating for them,
using the most cruel way you thought of.
Giving me all the pain You can
and torment me for at least 8 hours.
And yet i thought we are not fated to be as mother and sons.
Continuing, i still believe in You.

Praying and praying to the above,
thinking that for once,
You'll willing to let me go,
leave a peace of life for me.

But You didn't.

Deep inside, i always ask myself.
WHAT IS IT THAT You WANT FROM ME!!!??

You had made the most miserable year out of me.
When will You willing to let me a peace of my life?
When will You give me a good rest?

Would You at least,
give me a good peaceful old year?

I'm totally beaten.
By You.

2008-11-15T07:46:00.000-08:00

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2008-11-15T05:43:00.000-08:00

Was being nudged by Mong to do this.I was'nt particularly a fan of answering quizs
but for your sake,
i'm exceeding my limit! haa.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

Continue this game by sending it to other people.
tagged by : already mentioned above, ah Mong ;q

1. Do you have secrets?
DUH!!! why not? everyone in this world does.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
Never ever.
3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as i find him worth waiting, i'll do it as infinity.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
(Woah, mong's answer is long.)I'll buy 2 tickets to taiwan for my parent to let them enjoy themselves over there, Shopping sphee with my girls and keep the rest in a saving account for future uses.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
i suppose.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone.

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other.
We have the chemistry in it.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Given my current status, i won't be liking anyone now.

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?
i'm not too sure.

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?
Learn to love yourself more and kick that bastard out.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
still the same?

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Baby boy.

13. How many times your heart has been broken?
twice.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and rich. This is a harsh world.Being rich can earn you quite an amount of advantage.

15. What is your favourite colour?
pale yellow currently.Crimson red and starry plum.

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
It's my boyfriend fault, he didnt love me enough.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
It take time to heal wounds.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
I love you, don't abuse it.

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
lover

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
Yes, but does it able to withstand the harsh world out there?

---

Sometimes i rather things to be back to the time when everything had not happened yet.

Someone prompted me this question which led to deep thinking.

If your partner did not concern about you anymore/If he's not around this world anymore.

which is more painful to you?

This question totally struck me and i'm speechless.

2008-11-02T07:16:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to my greatest mother of all.
My grandmother.
She should be counted as a mother.
Someone who keep me under her wings,
protecting me from slightest harm,
caring me like a precious gem she only had.
Quite naggy at times,
but still,
trying all means and way to prevent me from getting astray.

That's my noble mama.
Once again, happy birthday to you, my mama.
May your health be once again strong, healthy,
long live and always
be my noble mother.

2008-11-02T04:37:00.000-08:00

I got tons to say, but not now.
Not now i say.
I am not in prepared to pour out everything here.
This week is a hell.
How am i going to phrase every single word here.
Teach me anyone.
This week is a total disaster.
I mean it.
Am not going to eleborate more now.
Really blissful to have him around when i am at my lowest point.
Thanks my boy,
My guy,my hubby.
Thanks for holding on me in that room.
That cold looking room.
Harshly cold.
But the pain is undescribable.
No not the labour pain,
The pain of losing something so precious dearly to me.
Something(s) i mean.
Till then, my angels.
Till we met again.

2008-10-24T03:14:00.000-07:00

Been quite busy these few days.
Spending alot of time with HIM plus trying to finish the book i borrowed.
It's not attractive looking from the outer but the content is what i've been finding when reading a chinese novel.
Simple storyline with big words.
Be amazed by how the author phrased each sentence.
i like how the couple bickering when they are just talking.
Just like how we bickering over small matters.Haa.
Will be meeting Mong to return the books so i had to finish it real fast else, i have to extend the date again.
I'm lazy.

Cant wait for sunday and monday.Gathering session.Singing session.

2008-10-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

I wont be typing words.Finally combined most of the pictures together.Photoshop rocks!

Not bad huh, i don't have to post the photos 1 by 1.Cheers!~
Other photos are coming.Stay tuned.

2008-10-18T01:45:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the very late post!!!

Reasons being:

addicted back to my Nintendo DS Lite.

Basically resting and trying new recipes from the library books.

Well, i really feel that life is meaningless to me now.
Whole day rotting, thinking what to do next.
Waiting for HIM to come home everynight.Blah.

The games that pulled me to touch my NDS again is

Go try ok!!! great great game that i always want to try!
Meanwhile, i will WILL NOT use photobucket EVER again.Sucks to the &@$%!(!!!

My mind been thinking very negatively lately.The word "what if" been appearing.What if he...what if we...I dont feel secure.

2008-10-09T23:01:00.000-07:00

Frustated by the photobucket limit exceed problem.Will fix it as soon.

Meanwhile, to the happier note, Its a twin boys!!!!;)
Xing and everyone were very happy.We thought of some names too.
But christian names are settled.
The naughtier one will be Javier and the smaller one will be Jaymond.
I love both of them.
As for the chinese one, we thought of a few.

Chen Kai Jian / Chen Kai Ming
OR
Chen Jian kai /Chen Jian ming

As for the chinese characters we were not very sure also.

Suggestion please!!! Specially from 8bros!! ;D

2008-10-07T03:01:00.000-07:00

Wont be saying much in this post.Let pictures do the talking.

Pick your next prank,Groom.

That looked nice,has your favourite chilli inside.

He vomited it halfway.Too spicy i guessed.

The leftovers.

The funniest part is where he and his buddy needed to blow burst a condem!Great bridemaids even told him to pull the condem before blowing so it will burst off easier.But he didnt know that it actually made it more elastic so the condem just kept on growing bigger till...

HAHAHahaha!Tian cheng burst it in the end.

Because they cheated so they are punished by drinking his worst enemy,Bitter gourd juice.

Good boy of him drank it all.No,i mean quarter of it,because..

My mei bo actually love bitter gourd and volunteered to drink the rest.He's lucky.
Of course we wont let him off so easily.Presenting his next enemy,capsicum.Yellow ones somemore.

He's charming that day ;x

Tian cheng and the photographer.

2008-10-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

Continuing from the previous post.With your Daddy beside.
No, not helping.Just beside playing his PS3.-.-

My dear bridemaid,Mong gave them red packets of prank.Not money,sorry.
He had to pick one of them and finish up that prank if not...
One prank not done=$99.Woah.

What's with that look?
It's milo with erm.. some proteins inside.Raw eggs i mean.

HAHA,he still drank it.For the sake of me!Tian cheng, this is not poison,you want some?

Side track abit, 6thoctober2008 is our registered marriage day!!!I'm hereby offically declared you MISS LAI ZI CHIN as MR CHEN XIE XING as his LAWFUL wife!!!
I'm so excited to hear that.Grins.

The Big Day

2008-10-04T00:11:00.000-07:00

Year 2008,10th september.
Time is 5.30am.
We(mong,ting and of course me)woke up pretty early to do the preparation.By early, we meant really early.Around 5.30am?Woah.
After all the hassles and unprepared situations, my makeup artist Sandy arrived.

All dolled up and waiting.

By that time, most of my relatives and friends arrived.Time is 8.45am.

My bridemaids are all over the room rushing their make up and changing.So funny.Everyone were trying to be in their best attire and get into the mood.My heart is beating non-stop.Wild imagination took over my mind, what if he didnt show up?Silly me.

The preparation of the pranks my bridemaids going to play.

As you can see, most of the food are his favourite.Not.

On the dot of the time, he finally arrived.Loud honking of the car were heard.Babies you saw that?That's your Dearly daddy, Mummy's dearly groom.;x

Going out soon, Mummy will upload the pictures again tonight.With Daddy.Loves.

2008-10-03T07:13:00.000-07:00

This will be the very first post.
Something to let my precious littles to view.
When they first see light.
I'm anxious about their arrival.
Xing too.

He's been changing, to a better man.
A better guy.
Better husband.
Better daddy.
I love him.
So do him.

PS: I'm blissful.

2008-10-03T05:12:00.001-07:00

testing testing.