This entry was wrote to release my feelings being surpressed inside me in the first place.I had alot to write actually.When i came to this page, everything i wanted to express, gone in second.My mind's a blank, my fingers frozed, and all i did was to stare blankly into the space.I was unhappy with work, unhappy with how i'm being treated, unhappy with what i am now.I want to go back to study, to upgrade myself again and this time with no slacking again.Deep inside, i knew i am never gonna be good in studies, but i want to give myself a chance yet again.Not into serious lecturing or exams, but to build up my skills and something which i can be proud of, vice verus, my parents too.Up to this age, i had finally want to achieve something so badly to prove myself.Though i always remind myself countlessly, don't mind what they said, just do your job to your best and that's it.But real fact, i am actually very bothered with those comments.Thoughout my life, i've actually achieved many that most people cant, - I learnt swimming with the help of my mummy's support, achieved a silver cert.
- I managed to get a bronze for running in my primary school days.One that i'm not good at.
- I learnt drawing animes with my cousin and a primary school crush (Jing Yan)'s help.
- I get to know art and designing and did pretty well actually.With Jia Ling and Teachers' help.
- I joined NCC(sea) with the help's of Joyce and learnt even more seasports which not many had tried.2nd star for kayaking, 1 star for sailing and many more.
- After getting to know about blogspot from Wendy, i tried learning to edit, customize HTML codes and made a current website for my workplace.Very proud of it.
- Learnt beauty skills from my aunt and her partner.
Perhaps for some, they would thought, chey! website so easy to make, art draw or copy then edit can le ma, seasports go learn la, cert go earn la, eg.
To me, it's already a very good achievements i had.After working there, i actually found out that, many things i knew besides their skills, they actually knew nothing for HTML, basic advertising, some designing skills, they knew far nothing.To me, i'm very happy about this myself.At least i didn't live for nothing, though nothing great achievement so far, but at least i learned more than people, more than anyone now.Be it life experiences, great barriers to overcome, blah blah blah.At least, i knew more.
But,
Deep down, i wanted to achieve more.
Hubby xing
Eightbros
