Current mood: sick(still!)/confusedThis is the 3rd week already and i am (still) sick.Flu and cough had been clinging on me refusing to shake off.This is my 3rd month working there.When will be the day that when i saw my pay, i will be delighted and contented?Being a trainee isn't that easy.You got ordered like a dog, running errands like a dog, buying their food like it's a must.I hate it.I detest it.I don't like it.Seriously hate being used up like that.If to use a nice name, they called you "girl".But it's more like maid.I'm like being tricked into your so-called company, saying that to train me as a qualified beautican but in actual fact, i'm called up to do almost everything FOR you.Yes Everything.I don't mind buying food for you, actually i DO mind, but heck it.I just being nice here.But i don't think i HAD to buy food for your boyfriend actually.Who is he actually? My boss?Nah, not even one.I felt like quitting.But i don't at the same time.Fcuked up mind now.
-9:53 AM
I have to take back all stuffs that i've typed on at the previous previous entry.Anger gushed off the better side of me that day.Yes i did cried that day, even while working, i guess its past.I don't like to hold on grudge.Made me older faster actually, i only want to vent all in a go and forget, actually i forgotten.Haa.Work was a breeze today, but flu virus spread rapidly faster than i thought, it's my 3rd time caughting it i guess.I meant, from recovering it and caught it, recovering it and then caught it again, asked everyone to wear a mask these day even when no customer.Haha, Chloe is the main virus spreader.LOL.Alright, finally 3 months probation ended and i'll be having a payrise!! make it 2.5k ok, OK, OK!!! I must be dreaming.
-9:24 PM
Too busy and too tired to blog the whole chunk of stuffs i did within this month right now, Laziness got the better of me.This month is a hectic month for me. I work like A** everyday, and finally gotten some pleasing results. Did 2 full procedure of facial service today (like finally)!! I've never felt so happy and contented before.Those hard work paid off.Great effort i put in.It was just only a week before that i couldn't even went down to clean a customer face, phobia struck me and i could'nt do anything.Was very depressed and disappointed by myself.I decided to do some hands-on on myself every night while removing my make up. Just only today, i managed to did everything basic on a customer, cleanse, scrub, diamond peel, cleanse, IPL, cleanse, RF, massage, cleanse, mask, toner and lastly moisturzer. Though it's like everyday thing you did, besides the intensive treatment using machine, it's really not easy to master it. Customer's skin is the first priorty! I'm gald i didn't shook while doing the service. A very remarkable experience i first had.Bad stuffs aside, at least i learnt something which not everyone can learn while working(for your information, you had to have a liencse as a beautican before you can actually earn money using your skills.I am really forunate to be trainee cum beautican.This path will definately be a very tough path to walk through, but i will endure till the end.My hard work will paid off.Sweet fruits will bear eventually. ;)Happy belated x10 birthday CHEK HAN!!!! picture i will upload once i am recover from this terrible virus that is spreadly rapidly these days.
-6:54 AM
You Can't Please Everyone.From Aesop's Fables: The Man, The Boy, and The DonkeyA man and his son were once going with their Donkey to market. As they were walking along by its side a countryman passed them and said: “You fools, what is a Donkey for but to ride upon?”So the Man put the Boy on the Donkey and they went on their way. But soon they passed a group of men, one of whom said: “See that lazy youngster, he lets his father walk while he rides.”So the Man ordered his Boy to get off, and got on himself. But they hadn't gone far when they passed two women, one of whom said to the other: “Shame on that lazy lout to let his poor little son trudge along.”Well the Man didn't know what to do, but at last he took his Boy up before him on the Donkey. By this time they had come to the town, and the passersby began to jeer and point at them. The Man stopped and asked what they were scoffing at. The men said: “Aren't you ashamed of yourself for overloading that poor Donkey of yours—you and your hulking son?”The man and Boy got off and tried to think what to do. They thought and they thought, till at last they cut down a pole, tied the Donkey's feet to it, and raised the pole and the Donkey to their shoulders. They went along amid the laughter of all who met them till they came to Market Bridge, when the Donkey, getting one of his feet loose, kicked out and caused the Boy to drop his end of the pole. In the struggle the Donkey fell over the bridge, and his fore-feet being tied together, he was drowned.“That will teach you,” said an old man who had followed them:“Please all, and you will please none.”***And quoted from allinspirations.com,I quoted it at esther's blog after reading it.If only i am just abit selfish, if only i am just abit evil and not going to concern, maybe i wont be struggling.Should i be selfish for once so to release myself from every person demands?I don't have to please everyone, i can clearly type it here that whenever you asked me to distribute your flyers, i actually dumped the whole stack of it and went shopping instead, i hate this job but what can i do? I had to run errands i didn't want to do, buying everyone breakfast after 1 call, doing the whole chunks of duty roaster that i didn't do at home at all, serving drinks to that partner of yours, and when i merely just asked her to make a cup of tea that day, the next day you just told me off, saying given the status i am now, i am not SUPPOSE to ask her to do anything for me, yet for herself she can, all because you are the BOSS.I don't think i had to work like SH*T for you, for your shop.I don't even feel like contributing for your shop, actually i don't think i need to.No, seriously.I can really say i still like my pervious job alot more thou the long hours and stuffs like that, we treated everyone the same, not even the shop manager ordered me like that, I just do everything i need to do every morning and that's it, she won't order us again.Just briefly told us nicely to do things she want us to do.THATS ALL!!! Not everything, Serena computer cannot work, Serena, tea or coffee please, Serena, wash the stained skirt customer had stained with her MENSES!!!, Serena, wash the cups, vacume the floor, wipe the table, do this do that, AND YET WHAT I FUCKING HEARD FROM MY OWN MOTHER THAT YOU TOLD HER I TREATED THAT PLACE AS MY HOME, WHEN I ACTUALLY DO THINGS ACCORDINGLY TO WHAT YOU FUCKING TOLD ME, WHAT YOU FUCKING ORDERED ME, LIKE A FUCKING DOG LISTENING TO HER FUCKING OWNER, ( EVEN A DOG WOULDN'T BE TREATED LIKE TT) BUYING BREAKFAST, LUNCH, DINNER WHEN YOU OR YOUR PARTNER JUST MERELY SAID A WORD , AIYA LAZY LEH, AIYA SIAN LEH, BUT HUNGRY LEH, ASK SERENA GO BUY LA. HOR MISS, I AM NOT YOUR HIRED MAID OK, YA SO WHAT I AM A TRAINEE? no is ACTUALLY, TRAINEE CUM FLYER DISTRIBUTER, CUM RECEPTIONST, CUM DUTY ROASTERS, CUM THIS N THAT.How about me? When i'm hungry who bothers? i had to buy myself food.make myself tea or milo. I worked like ass everyday, went home drop on bed like dead, yet you still claimed that you are tired or what.Or even saying " Serena why so tired, your work so relaxed liao still so tired??"FUCK YOU!!!i don't fucking care if you read this, if i had set my mind to type all this, venting my angers here, i wouldn't had scare/fear that you will read this one day.I felt much better.Thanks ting and mong for listening my whinnings , Z.Z too. ;)Thanks baby for lending me your shoulder yesterday while saying all these, i should had told you eariler.
-7:27 AM
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