Christmas was nothing special this year.No jingle bells, no roast turkey, no high fattening logcake, best of all, no christmas tree.Stayed at home on Christmas eve and Christmas day.Everyone were partying off their head while me did nothing at all.Wasn't totally in the mood at all.I mean, why ditch off all my cliques when it's a joyful season.Once a year, never less definately not even more.I hate myself for being like that.Penniless, Cheque can't be cash out.Totally meaningless.What's the point of celebrating when i am totally broke?I can't even fork out money to invest a good gift for exchanging.I am a loser.My mood is in the dim point.I didn't want to back out.I was actually anticipating for it.Sorry Mong, i've let you down.You didn't gave up on this bastard friend when i kept giving all sort of reasons to back off.I don't want to dampen your mood by turning up.I don't know how to appreciate it.Sorry Ting, it's your birthday celebration yet i did not turn up.I'm sorry.But your present i wont forget.Had been saving money now to select the best gift for you.Thanks for understand.I never give up on you guys, i gave up on myself.
Hubby xing
Eightbros
