.Chriserena.

Friday, November 28, 2008

About my previous post,
just forget it.
Chuck it off to the back of my brain.

On a happier note, after my continuously nagging and maybe some godsent luck,
i finally convinced my mummy to upgrade my internet plan to a better speed,
better modem, better still,
wireless!!

Speed is 512bmp!!!
Oh goody, i dont have to leech from SMC, BELKIN or whatsome ever random names.Blah.

Mio i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-4:32 AM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

You gave me as a present to my beloved elderly in 1989.
You made them doted me like a precious stone,
making them giving me the best they could ever afford.

On a age of 3, You threw a temper and i had a fever of 41 degree.
You made me left a bitemark on my pap's thumb that can't be eased.
In a hospital, You decided to make my doctor went mad
and threw me into a bucket of ice cold water.
After that cold war,
You decided to take away my memory for awhile,
making me like a stranger to my dearest.
Yet i endure.

After my age of 3,
You grew bored of me and decided to left me alone
while looking for others to play.
Thank god for this.

Year 2008,
You decided to come back to me and torment me even more.

You gave me a life of two,
on the tail of July.
Making me all confused yet decided to keep them.
For this, i treated as fated.

10th of September 2008,
You gave me a disaster wedding,
making me all wear and tore.
Unprepared obstacles.
Yet i continue to endure.

After the wedding,
I thought You've finally let me go.
No, you didnt.

On the very fateful evening,
November 10; 19:05pm,
You took them away when i'm fully anticipating for them,
using the most cruel way you thought of.
Giving me all the pain You can
and torment me for at least 8 hours.
And yet i thought we are not fated to be as mother and sons.
Continuing, i still believe in You.

Praying and praying to the above,
thinking that for once,
You'll willing to let me go,
leave a peace of life for me.

But You didn't.

Deep inside, i always ask myself.
WHAT IS IT THAT You WANT FROM ME!!!??

You had made the most miserable year out of me.
When will You willing to let me a peace of my life?
When will You give me a good rest?

Would You at least,
give me a good peaceful old year?

I'm totally beaten.
By You.

-8:15 PM

Saturday, November 15, 2008

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-7:46 AM

Was being nudged by Mong to do this.I was'nt particularly a fan of answering quizs
but for your sake,
i'm exceeding my limit! haa.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

Continue this game by sending it to other people.
tagged by : already mentioned above, ah Mong ;q

1. Do you have secrets?
DUH!!! why not? everyone in this world does.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
Never ever.
3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as i find him worth waiting, i'll do it as infinity.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
(Woah, mong's answer is long.)I'll buy 2 tickets to taiwan for my parent to let them enjoy themselves over there, Shopping sphee with my girls and keep the rest in a saving account for future uses.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
i suppose.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone.

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other.
We have the chemistry in it.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Given my current status, i won't be liking anyone now.

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?
i'm not too sure.

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?
Learn to love yourself more and kick that bastard out.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
still the same?

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Baby boy.

13. How many times your heart has been broken?
twice.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and rich. This is a harsh world.Being rich can earn you quite an amount of advantage.

15. What is your favourite colour?
pale yellow currently.Crimson red and starry plum.

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
It's my boyfriend fault, he didnt love me enough.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
It take time to heal wounds.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
I love you, don't abuse it.

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
lover

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
Yes, but does it able to withstand the harsh world out there?

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Sometimes i rather things to be back to the time when everything had not happened yet.

Someone prompted me this question which led to deep thinking.

If your partner did not concern about you anymore/If he's not around this world anymore.

which is more painful to you?

This question totally struck me and i'm speechless.

-5:43 AM

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Happy birthday to my greatest mother of all.
My grandmother.
She should be counted as a mother.
Someone who keep me under her wings,
protecting me from slightest harm,
caring me like a precious gem she only had.
Quite naggy at times,
but still,
trying all means and way to prevent me from getting astray.

That's my noble mama.
Once again, happy birthday to you, my mama.
May your health be once again strong, healthy,
long live and always
be my noble mother.

-7:16 AM

I got tons to say, but not now.
Not now i say.
I am not in prepared to pour out everything here.
This week is a hell.
How am i going to phrase every single word here.
Teach me anyone.
This week is a total disaster.
I mean it.
Am not going to eleborate more now.
Really blissful to have him around when i am at my lowest point.
Thanks my boy,
My guy,my hubby.
Thanks for holding on me in that room.
That cold looking room.
Harshly cold.
But the pain is undescribable.
No not the labour pain,
The pain of losing something so precious dearly to me.
Something(s) i mean.
Till then, my angels.
Till we met again.

-4:37 AM